I want to sleep......

I lay awake every night
Thinking of those days
Of sweet desires
Of my innocent eyes..
was it you then Or my youth’s lie?

A beautiful Life
I dreamt of once
Not so long that
I signed me off
At your heart’s note.

Before you came along
My life seemed like
a wild wind, gushing around
with bundled emotions
engulfed tears, insane thirst
for an unknown prayer
to save me from my own
Thoughts and desires….

But little did I know
No company suites me more
But my solitude; not your lore
Expect not from another
No matter what
They will let you down
I understand the truth now
Not then, when you were around..

Was it heaven?
Those precious moments with you
Was it you?
That quest that seemed an infinite queue
Was it me?
oh tell me how could it not be true...

It scared me
Quite often then
How could I love you
So………..
That I forget to live
A moment for myself

Pickled in time
Alive in my mind
Our first kiss
How can I forget that,
My heart soared
To a thousand notes
Of countless of those
Sea’s tides

I regret now
I should have died
That very instant
At that very beautiful chime…

I know now,
No company suites me more
But my solitude; not your lore
Expect not from another
No matter what
They will let you down
I understand the truth now
Not then when you were around…

Why I am I still awake then
Oh my love?

Am I waiting for you

If I am, will you come?