I am here ; that'l suffice!

Its not exactly love

and its not like I believe

 in love either,

Its this vagueness!

I am here in all,

but strangely don’t

want my presence felt.

 

Its not exactly love

does not mean I’m

not to make more of it

I cudnt care if I am too naive

I don’t trust  

plans that’l last

for a life’ time, anyways..

 

Its not exactly love

still,  there will be tears (shed)

nothing will last

till my days end,

so  I will do just fine

cause this moment

is which I really care.

 

Its not exactly love

And I believe this

is all I deserve,

for now!

Inner voice - Delusion

I know that voice,

It never leaves my dreams

 

I pretend innocence,

Its hard to ignore

death’s incense

when it stifles you

of your breath

that last taste of hope

 

But I know more

there I stayed one too many days

Lost in its soulless song,

at times I wondered if

it spoke much but silence

Still it was my only song

 

A distant hymn embraced me

& I wandered in search of more

than just a silenced soul

but the voice called me back,

as if I were its shadow,

it said, I did not deserve more

 

I know this voice,

I don’t want to believe it

I don’t want to be belonged

Not to it…, Not anymore…;

I pretend innocence,

I pretend it'll go away..

Between you and Air

At times I feel
I am between your cigar and ash
that thin curve of smoke
which dares not touch your breath
vanishes in a minute,
and quite forgotten the next
cause its always at the other end…

Uncertain

There are moments I don’t know
If what I feel is real
If it’s going to last
or if I am but standing,
at the end of that thought.
Why couldn’t life be
just a bit simple and clear?
What if I get it all wrong,
Would I go no where?
May be its time to start afresh then,
cos this game has too many ways unknown,
Too little time to explore them all.
What if it was meant to be this way
will I last to see it all?

My Heaven

Awed I looked on,
as night shone over the rippled sea,
its froth touched the tips of my toes,
as its baritone got me lost
and its gusty winds blew through my hair

Between sea, sky and I,
somewhere while I got lost in-there,
I found heaven…
& it turned me to a mere shell
that laid in its way.