Bored vs. Broke

My list of things
“to-do” is racing
off the loop
yet I sit there..
still and calm
as though I had nothing to do
On the list of things
I had to do…

Slowly enjoying
My cup of tea
I admire aah that scenic view
that which the spring drew
Oh so with many hues
made the ordinary prune
extraordinary so very soon..

Telling myself
One shouldn’t miss
atleast those full
bloomed row of trees
more now like an old woman
Cursing those chilly winds
Mumbling those forgotten songs
I sat there.. still and calm
As though
I had it all done
in my list of things
I hadnt done.

Only Yesterday I talked to my sis
A full two hours & something at ease
And still felt I missed,
my darling sis ..
To let the moment pass
and to rest my crying heart
I sat still in my office hours
Still and calm
Nothing perturbed me as though
There was no deadline falling
& My advisor didn’t exist ever

As though I had never made a list
The list of things
Which I hadn’t done!

Now, this morning I Open
That dreaded list
Oh did u want a peek?
Bills bills and bills
Pepco, comcast, credit& debit,
now I know why I never touched
once I made the list
that list Of things I hadn’t done.

That’s because
my starving purse has
no more to give
poor grad student
That I Am! :(