Hues of thought

Heaven on Earth

2011-06-27T14:16:00.003+05:30

Angels have fallen,
emptied the skies.
beneath the clouds,
lay now the heavens.
Thousand tears shed
drenched us, the rain,
washing away our miseries,
ours, mere mortal's.

what remains now is
a fallen heaven,
in the hands of mere men,
who do not have an eternity
to hate, or to make things right,
not even fully to live or to love.
what they have is- now.
Now there is
a heaven in their hold,
and a hell to make.
And so they try
the mortals!

By name - Cream

2010-10-04T16:23:00.001+05:30

I am the color cream,
the dull light beam,
they might not notice me,
I am subtle like dream.
Splash me with a color,
and I prime,
make it look better,
lend it the fame.
I am color cream,
you will remember me b’cause I am dim.

Silently...

2010-08-20T18:06:00.004+05:30

Days went by

silence was all we heard.

no one ever said much,

I did not either.

I don't remember hearing

voices of people I lived with.

sometimes I talked to me

to remind myself of the sound of me.

It was like a norm

that was dictated,

silently.

We seemed to follow it

unquestioning and awkwardly,

day after day for every unchanging year

that passed by us,

silently.

Sometimes the cutlery, clinkered,

apart from the click of the clock's hands.

I heard the cars that drove by at distance

the fast ones from the slow.

I even heard on occasions

strangers whispering by the corner of the lane.

or may be I imagined that in my happy dream

when we wanted someone to speak

we switched on the tv.

I wondered if we were growing

oblivious to the obvious silence,

silently.

I wasn't ,

I ran away,

far from home,

silently.

Dream

2010-07-05T18:49:00.001+05:30

O' wanderer that seeks me at night,
our secrets lay untold, in closed eye.
name I not know yours, you not mine,
yet your words rumble in my mind.
your mind wiggles never in order at any time,
not one story or a pattern to see,
of dis-chorded whims and whine.

tears trickle down my unaware skin,
a giggle parts my innocent lips,
brows squiggle in unattractive drifts,
how you abet me to resign to such tricks?

still I will look for you,
silent nights, I crave you.
O wanderer seek me at night,
I am at the lover's wine, there by the sea,
On full moon nights and crescent delights,
you know where to come, home.
move not a finger, fetch me by your thought.

Vikram Seth

2010-04-18T00:12:00.002+05:30

The only guy crush I seem to have sustained for almost a decade now is Vikram Seth. the clarity with which his poetry speaks is encapsulating and warmingly innervating , for me Seth is a must read, re- read and yea that degree of adoration!

I have never met him in person , never have had the good fortune to be present in any book discussion or reading, hey but look what I have got here, one of Vikram's lecture

http://richmedia.lse.ac.uk/publicLecturesAndEvents/20100318_1830_friendshipAndPoetry.mp3

(Inspired by) Phantom of Opera

2010-04-15T22:31:00.004+05:30

Remember your promise to me
beloved don't you, quit on me.
my soul's nightingale,
don't sing, your heavenly chants,
put me to sleep, wear your wings,
leave me in slumbers deep.
my window to the colors of a day,
don't leave now, me in this disarray,
kill me if you wish, with your song,
with your love's blade,
you know you can,
because,with you my heart lays a slave.

Price to pay

2010-03-13T13:36:00.004+05:30

To walk the forbidden maze,
to see beyond known,
even if it were a try,
the price to be me,
is to give away
every last bit,
anything I hold mine.
sometimes I fear
this will not do,
to catch my dreams,
I wont be enough,
which like a fairy cloud
faintly dingles,in skies of hope,
remains evasive,throwing echoes,
calling me, calling in loops aloud.
Have I,wandered too far?
can not remember why or where,
home has lost its flavor,
of its nature,inane character,
should I let fear drive
while I give up on me?
to dream is a gift
but will it befit me?
Then again I often ask,
to drift away,
from your own truth
is it not to push away
life to soot?
hoping it will not,
knowing it would,
take the whole of me
even if it were a try
I stand as I should
alone, yet bloody good.

Happy place

2010-02-25T02:29:00.003+05:30

Take me to a place where,
eyes rest in chambers of sleep,
mind eases in to dreams,
dreams grow wings
and fly across seas,
and I wake up to your warm embrace.

Let me...

2010-01-24T18:48:00.000+05:30

meet your eyes
seek those lies
let me try,
O let me try.

let me in your
darkest nights
lonely beds
of sweet desires.

Walk with me
under twinkled skies
shadows twined
your soul pristine
only mine.

In red and apart

2009-12-08T18:08:00.001+05:30

Our heavens are apart
as gods we talk
we stand alone
with lonely hearts
though the guilt
echoes our thoughts
we stand in red
we stand apart

Take a cue
this gloomy hue
what made a smile
turn into rue
you were there
and you could change
you turned your back
left your men to brood

our worlds apart
as gods we talk
alone we stand
with guilty thoughts
we stand in red
turn men to graves
those eerie cries,
how may you try
will come with us.

Coo Coo

2009-12-08T17:39:00.002+05:30

I wanna go on a world wide tour,
I wanna make those dreams come true
this is the time I fly,
this moment all mine,
this lady is gonna make every one coo
coo coo, to my tune...

lets take a boat and sail ,Oh look
far away, every corner and nook
use the rainbows to climb the clouds
and open taps of showers
in rains, rainbows lets coo
coo coo, to my tune..

let me know ,more about you
brown black rose which ever hue
take my heart and show me you
who ever you hide with in you
so I can make you coo
coo coo, to my tune.

In your arms

2009-12-08T16:18:00.001+05:30

Let me fall, fall free

so you could catch me

in your arms, in their warmth

let me be glee

However I try , and despise

let me not dream or see

anything but you with me

in your arms, in their warmth

let me be glee

cause I don't want to ever lose you

to the silly fights that I have with you

I never said it's gonna be easy

but I know there is nothing I feel so true

Oh, so let me fall free,

and hope you catch me...

in your eyes , let me see me.

let me be done

2009-12-08T11:09:00.003+05:30

Here I am with my heart so cold,
unclear on what I heard & was told,
I believe you said you lost our soul,
while there I stood unaware of it all.

How it happened, I do not want to know,
I want to pick my life from here and go,
Now and right now.
Not the shame of it all, it is the pain of this so,
let me just go , go , go...

How does it feel to love, I forgot,
tears many to wipe away and move on,
it is not you I want now,
I want me, alone and done.

No pain like love...

2009-12-02T00:59:00.001+05:30

pain is indistinct
in ways it impairs
sipidly makes place,
for more.
conquers senses
you might have
had before.
silently runs in nerves
rots you within
killing life's verve
many ways like love
many times because of love

And you walked away

2009-12-01T22:52:00.003+05:30

I tasted love in tears
that fell through my lips,
anger in merciless eyes,
those endless silences
unanswered pleas.
pain in betrayal,
those voices in my head
that you left behind,
those I still hear.
and yet I loved you
before the tears, the anger,
before the betrayal
and after.

when you talk

2009-11-20T12:50:00.003+05:30

It is not an arduous task
to find words
that convey thoughts.
It is to find those which
do justice to silence,
that bridge those
awkward introductions,
that make friends with foes,
which are severe
and gentle, at once
It is not about finding
the right words, or is it?
It is about finding the courage
to mean them.

easy love...

2009-11-01T19:34:00.003+05:30

eyes that delved in yours,
now closed.lips stained
in morning's fog craved yours,
warmth leaving them faintly begged
a passage,as you laid me
to a mossed wall of an empty home.
tender thighs twisted and locked
you reassured, my trembling waist,
and gazed at me as if I were a firefly
I merely basked, in your easy love.

little thought...

2009-10-30T01:06:00.000+05:30

How little I thought
of afternoons, nights and days,
a silent bed and by me, I will lay
of many a spring's dusks,
lost among the shadows I would search
of drunken lusts,wails of past
as I tried to play a flute of rock
how little I thought
of what I need
of what I can dream

Let it rain!

2009-05-18T18:03:00.003+05:30

let it rain!
let it rain!!
let it fill the drains
and the plains,
chill the walls
of the skies
and tell you
heavens cried.

let it rain!
let it rain!!
let it bring
life back to us, again,
let the frogs chatter
in those puddles of water,
and grasshoppers zzzz's be a pain.

let it rain!
let it rain !!
let its wail tell us again
- "see those bubbles at my drops end?
that's life for u my friend"

Just go on!

2009-04-24T18:27:00.002+05:30

if life seems a race
and you are fighting for breath
if nothing's in control
and things are falling apart
you don’t have time
to look around
-sigh at those disapproving frowns,
if you have fallen down,
far too many times
tasted sweat, sour mis-luck
you are only going too fast
and that is good !

Restless

2009-03-16T18:48:00.003+05:30

What do I do?
where am I to?
everything a perfect misfit
and I am too
my skies never end their sway,
their circles push me as I lay,
as if tied by feet, unwilling my spirit,
I hear them say,
farther away, farther away
from her dreams that seemed real,
from shadows that gave her a veil.

What do I do?
where am I to?
stuck in a capsule that knows not to move
nightmare that has seemingly come true
nothing happens ever, here
in these lanes I grow grey and impair
so much to do ,
but shackled to root,
despair turns me insane.
they are on their way,
circling skies, dwindling worlds,
I need to run far away, far away.

What do I do?
where am I to?
everthing a perfect misfit
I don’t want to be one too.

- Dusk-

2008-12-09T15:00:00.002+05:30

At every day’s break
the sun takes the same way down
softly edging the horizon
with it its warmth,
& those yellow's hues,
sinks in to the distant seas
ray after ray …
Far from the bustling crowds ,
from this time stricken world,
from where I stood
lost & watched,
It has a rhythm
It's own whim,
we all give in,
sooner or later...

Will You?

2008-12-06T14:51:00.001+05:30

I am not an angel

I might just be a sly

a wastrel and begotten wry

I make you a promise

& how I might try

for all I know me

you could be just

a convenient smile...

True, untrue can’t say

what is, wont deny

can’t fail, in your eye ,

wouldn’t ask for your love

all I urge is a chance,

a fair try..

I am here ; that'l suffice!

2008-10-24T12:04:00.003+05:30

Its not exactly love

and its not like I believe

in love either,

Its this vagueness!

I am here in all,

but strangely don’t

want my presence felt.

Its not exactly love

does not mean I’m

not to make more of it

I cudnt care if I am too naive

I don’t trust

plans that’l last

for a life’ time, anyways..

Its not exactly love

still, there will be tears (shed)

nothing will last

till my days end,

so I will do just fine

cause this moment

is which I really care.

Its not exactly love

And I believe this

is all I deserve,

for now!

Inner voice - Delusion

2008-10-17T14:30:00.002+05:30

I know that voice,

It never leaves my dreams

I pretend innocence,

Its hard to ignore

death’s incense

when it stifles you

of your breath

that last taste of hope

But I know more

there I stayed one too many days

Lost in its soulless song,

at times I wondered if

it spoke much but silence

Still it was my only song

A distant hymn embraced me

& I wandered in search of more

than just a silenced soul

but the voice called me back,

as if I were its shadow,

it said, I did not deserve more

I know this voice,

I don’t want to believe it

I don’t want to be belonged

Not to it…, Not anymore…;

I pretend innocence,

I pretend it'll go away..

Between you and Air

2008-07-28T14:44:00.001+05:30

At times I feel
I am between your cigar and ash
that thin curve of smoke
which dares not touch your breath
vanishes in a minute,
and quite forgotten the next
cause its always at the other end…

Uncertain

2008-07-25T02:03:00.003+05:30

There are moments I don’t know
If what I feel is real
If it’s going to last
or if I am but standing,
at the end of that thought.
Why couldn’t life be
just a bit simple and clear?
What if I get it all wrong,
Would I go no where?
May be its time to start afresh then,
cos this game has too many ways unknown,
Too little time to explore them all.
What if it was meant to be this way
will I last to see it all?

My Heaven

2008-07-21T15:38:00.001+05:30

Awed I looked on,
as night shone over the rippled sea,
its froth touched the tips of my toes,
as its baritone got me lost
and its gusty winds blew through my hair

Between sea, sky and I,
somewhere while I got lost in-there,
I found heaven…
& it turned me to a mere shell
that laid in its way.

Gift of a 'life'

2008-07-08T14:29:00.004+05:30

Every day
in our not so great lives,
its not the twinkling stars
that sparkle our wishful eyes,
its that ray of light,
that lits every sight,
our hearts, lives and thoughts alive,
sweeps through our dark nights,
through tears, fears and makes us alright
as its sops, at each breaking dawn,
a new hope,a chance to survive.
In subtle, these lessons lay
life's length until death,they'd suffice.
Yet, I seldom try,
and everyday I live,
this not so great life.

Empty Martini

2008-06-18T18:31:00.004+05:30

Undue blushes
unkept promises
sweetly edge
truth's bitterness
and fool men to
plunge dive in to
life's vast emptiness..

Wish

2008-06-18T18:27:00.003+05:30

However you might wish,
plead and blotch those
perfectly matted cheeks
with tears flushing
your liners thick ink
your wish will remain
faithfully - a - wish

Square One

2008-06-18T18:15:00.003+05:30

Life now seems like

It is in the middle

Of nowhere..

But I need to startover

Somehow,.. & Somewhere…

Blurred Slumbers

2008-02-23T05:44:00.001+05:30

so close to truth
yet so far..,
riding on a dream
that fell apart
in the shoes that
walked me to hell
a ray undefined
found me soul dead
in the dark oddness
an obtuse hope
woke me up
& I walked away
never looked back...

Water like

2008-02-02T03:23:00.001+05:30

If words be water,
I would gather them
by my palms
drenched in rain
with folded arms
and then leave them
all, drop and then a drop
with due diligence
to let them find
their destined path
while I take pride
in their journey
that marked them
from the others
when I am done
with my treasure
all I have to do
is pray to those
heavenly skies
for a glorious shower
yet again
If words were water
would I want a river or rain?
If words were water
there never would
be silence again
If words were water,
……

Crush

2008-01-26T19:55:00.000+05:30

The touch of your glance
raged in me a passion
like fire, that pricked me
by skin and quickly spread
deep with in, as my heart
pounded with anticpation
of what might come of this
strange, yet destined meet
I quivered inside as if a
bird shelterless in storm night,
but bore brave smile,
wait!
did you know that?
did you know that?
wait!
I bore a brave smile,
but a bird shelterless in storm night,
though i quivered inside, over
our strange yet destined meet
of what might come of this
pounded with anticipation
deep with in as my heart
through skin and it quickly spread
that fire that pricked me,
raged in me a passion
at the touch of your glance!

Some Day

2008-01-20T17:51:00.000+05:30

I can’t pretend,
I am feeling alive
Every time I move on,
You grab me, by my mind
I am going places,
but I cant seem to find
sanity that’s mine
So don’t tell me
Its all a big mistake
You know, I am just not a game
Don’t you dare,
tell me that you’ll be not there
I am tired of crying
over these memories you made
I will not be here, someday
don’t come searching then
When I go far away!

Live.

2008-01-20T16:42:00.000+05:30

The moment you know
(your)time is finite
you will find a way
to make things happen

That is the moment of truth,
your fears are gone
and you leap to
your dream land

Suddenly then ,
you will see,

there are very few
(things) you care about
and nothing worthwhile
to hold on..

Its too short a time
to crib about wrongs

we all ought to reach
the same end,
tragedy or not

That is the moment of truth ,
when what you see, in your mirror
grins right back at you.

The moment you know,
when time is finite
and you are all
you have got
you will know- you.

Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton

2008-01-20T14:42:00.000+05:30

Aol live

Leaving on a Jet plane

2008-01-20T14:25:00.000+05:30

(version 2) Chantal Kreviazuk

For John Denver's version
http://youtube.com/watch?v=vLBKOcUbHR0

The Journey (verse-I)

2008-01-17T16:27:00.000+05:30

Here she comes O’ mighty gods,
through the storms that bore the wrath
in the cold that pinned her to bone
in she walks, through that dreaded path
in search of you, the only true,
she silently endures, the rocked path
as she treaded , she stumbled over, over..
her dainty feet bare, turned to lotus red,
not having seen pain afore, she delves
in this altered state, and yet nothing stops her
as she marches through your walls
with the strength of warrior,
In search of you in her,
Here she comes O’mighty gods !

I wonder why (lemon tree) -Fools Garden

2008-01-15T17:57:00.000+05:30

I havent known anyone who has'nt fallen in love with this song.
Lyrics:
I'm sitting here in a boring room it's just another rainy
Sunday afternoon I'm wasting my time I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens- and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens- and I wonder

I wonder how I wonder why yesterday you told me
'bout the blue blue sky and all tall that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here I miss the power I'd like to go out
taking a shower but there's a heavy cloud in side my head
I feel so tired put myself into bed where nothing
ever happens- and I wonder

Isolation - is not good for me
Isolation - I don't want to sit on a lemon-tree
I'm steppin' around in a desert of joy Baby anyhow I'll get another toy and every thing will happen-and you'll wonder

I wonder how I wonder why yesterday you told me
'bout the blue blue sky and all tall that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

In line with my fav songs- KATE NASH's

2008-01-13T16:33:00.000+05:30

Music Videos - Foundations

Kate Nash
You can certainly taste some sugar and spice – not to mention a bracing shot of whiskey-tinged wit – in the music of Kate Nash. But when it comes time to answer the question of what the 20-year-old singer-songwriter is made of, one need only look at the title of her debut album – Made of Bricks.
excerpts from http://www.geffen.com/katenash
Also read http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kate_Nash

Love love Absolutely Love Colbie

2007-12-21T22:45:00.000+05:30

Music Videos - Bubbly

Get to know CoCo

http://www.colbiecaillatmusic.com/

Void

2007-12-11T01:25:00.000+05:30

when you don't know
what you want
what will you do
rather not do?

what is this void
in my soul ?
its place in my
enchanted skies?
has it made the
distance infinite?
does it pride
in this journey endless?

Will I conquer
this numbness I feel ?
or will I let it
dictate my destiny?

I dont know
this way back,
the map to home ,
long lost...

yet I heard
that voice,
across my fears
"you will make it",
and I know,
That's I.

I, Me, Myself :)

2007-12-07T15:28:00.000+05:30

who am I ?

A mystical magic
an Aquarian woman

One thing I value most
is freedom.

I come from
the land of yoga
and kamasutra
elephants and snakes
and lot more than
just a view from discovery channel!!
I am from India

For me the greatest joy
is in rhythm, &rhyme
music & rain

sarcasm isn't just my kind of thing
except though when it is from Oliver Twist

I believe quite strongly
that two most horrible things
no one escapes, are
birth & death
philosophy is my favorite
quite boggling ain't it
for being a trained engineer??

so there you are
seven little,
little known things
of me :)

Above is in response to the prompt from my friend Christine, from I promise blogroll (visit her at http://mariacristina.wordpress.com/). The Tag was to write seven little known things about yourself . It was real fun writing about myself, Thank you Christine!!
You should all try doing this !

My crystal ball !

2007-12-03T21:43:00.000+05:30

Eyes met to the beginnings
of a new world,
the unknown heaven.
bidding farewell,
to the one I know.

There, I lay in peace,
comfortably numb
to the pain, from truth
and the many lies,
while I am in my
beautiful dream.

Away from a cynical past
far from the gaze
that questioned me,
& a conflicting mind
which I bore on thyself,
I flew away,
to a noone's land
while I am in my
beautiful dream…

It ran out like
thin water, in streams
and I tried to capture,
with clasped palms & fists
this miniscule mind shift,
all that I got to drift
while I am in my
beautiful dream…

Untold echos

2007-12-01T15:27:00.000+05:30

Nothing’s, barely
good enough
Be kept a secret!
either as thrilling
Be shared!
Yet people hushed along...
Hushes echoing,
secrets told
And kept….

As you like it

2007-11-20T03:19:00.000+05:30

Spellbound by
your ruthless cruelty,
I tried, to end this all!

But destiny had other plans
As it always does!!

Words fell with morbid silence
As I, in agonising pain
Shrieks of angst, unheard
pain lingered,forever
What is the value of life,
when gone tomorrow...
I tried to end this all

But destiny had other plans
& It always did..

I deserved it all, like u thought
It made sure, I had it fair
My share of this
unending breath.

soul butchered
I remain…

Mind Game

2007-11-10T00:45:00.000+05:30

My brain is a funny place
I make castles of sand,
and It makes the high tides

(Alzheimer's)

My own Happy Ending

2007-10-29T02:27:00.002+05:30

It is quite not the life I dreamed
Fairy tales I guess aren’t reality
There is no chariot, there is no mermaid
Never had a glass shoe,
Is there a prince charming?
Am I to believe still,
There are happy endings !!

I’m just a simple girl
with lots of dreams….
now you told me
its okay to dream,
but, its time to wake up,
to reality..

yet when I stare
at the starlit sky,
I wish there was my prince,
who could make it all right,
& me a fairy of a tale...

Alive again

2007-10-19T08:26:00.000+05:30

Feeling alive

is an ordeal

often forgotten
tired & bruised

yet I try & lose

to escape those

wretched memories

It is like a dreadful dream

and.....

life stalled there!

at a nerve wrecking pause!!

I am endlessly

praying for a new day,

it never comes,

It did not today,

yet I await

.......

.........

And I wait....

for what, I no longer know

for whom, I forgot

I am still at that pause..

.....

Only, I have learnt to live now!!

break free

2007-10-11T04:03:00.000+05:30

let me be free
tie not my spirit
with how I should be
just let me be free

let me sing
with the tinkling chimes
let me dance
with the gusty winds
let me cry
heartbroken in rain
and indulge in rhyme
pardon me, but
that’s how I feel alive

let me fight crime
let me forget time
let me be me
judge me if you like
but, set me free…

broken dreams

2007-09-22T01:49:00.000+05:30

I ran behind those broken dreams,

trying to grasp, yet void fists,
whisked by wind,
too far to reach,
in to the middle
of a wretched storm,
empty of soul,
quenches its devilish thirst
of each word of my dream
washed them of soul and ink..

And I stood there watching
wet and tired
cold and strangled
as if i were the dream
when done with the bloody meal
it abandoned it like rotten meat
afloat in a puddle by my feet
I scavenged the drain with my long fingers
eyes flooded with memories
of when they dug in to your arms
and you had me like a beast
now all that remains
of the insane self as if at blaze,

are those withered thoughts
of broken dreams.

Magic Wings

2007-09-11T22:53:00.001+05:30

O Fairy of mystic skies
lend me your wings so I can fly,
to a beautiful land of pure joy.
Away from the painful memories
and tears in my eyes.....
Far from fists of guile,
from the dark dungeons
of my own mind...

O Fairy from my dreams at night,
do lend me your wings,so I can fly,
free from these frayed souls
those hath not a conscience of right or a lie..
far from this vicious circle of life,
from my abyss of needs and desires

Little Nothings!!

2007-09-10T07:24:00.000+05:30

Ever swayed to the buzz Of wind?
Smiled at a cute puppy playing by A sea deck?
Stared at the sun rising, sipping tea??
Danced in rain to welcome it?
Saved the best leaf from fall?
Cried in a movie?
Scared by the thought of ghost in the night?
Broke a limb?
Did something completely selfless?
Gave an oscar speech at your mirror?
Laughed hard with your best buddy?
Yikes!!! I did …
See there is more to me
Than just “you”
What was I thinking $#*&^*%#
Silly me!!

Adieu

2007-09-07T11:01:00.000+05:30

It would have been an easy end
If I weren’t strangely aware,
that you are still here,
next to me , holding my hand
looking in my eye and telling me
its all going to be alright.

I would have known better,
If it weren’t for your
expertise artifice,
and my ignorant naivety

It would have been a good bye
If it weren’t for those
little & large quibbles
those very reasons you
hoarded against me

nothing is the same
or it will be, I suspect
the last time we met
shall be the last of its kind

yet,
It would have been an affable farewell
If it wasn’t that I still love you
And you dont!

Angry...

2007-08-27T20:25:00.000+05:30

My heart aches -

for those,who filled their lives with apathy,

for those,who sell themselves day in and out

as if a man's character were a commodity,

for those, who nolonger can even see

themselves with a straight eye,

for those finding fault with

the whole world around & their unseen destinies,

for those who can not stand for a fair cause,

not even if for themselves

Deal

2007-08-27T20:12:00.000+05:30

What do I want from life?

Happiness,

Peace,

a little wealth to ensure the above

& time....

What can I render to life?

me, myself!!

------------Fair Deal -----------------

Now that I have given you myself, can I please get what I asked for............,
a little faster?

Far from home

2007-07-26T03:39:00.000+05:30

Distance is becoming
a stranger phenomenon, by day.
Missing you is now more a habbit,
shuffled in many of the everyday's mundane.

Still every now and then
tears do roll down my cheek,
thats when I know
an abominable, distance's presence ,
walls me and my happy place...

Miss u

Dreams

2007-07-13T05:43:00.000+05:30

Quite often I wonder,
If dreams ever come true ?

A curve of reality
engraved deep
in crevices’ of my mind
why then do they prophes
to dream is but,
a waste of the quintessential,
- time.

I will not deny that, I agree
in some ways true they are,
I believe
but then as I always plead,
to dream my friend is not the crime
as much as to believe
they will be true.
For dream is but, a dream,
will remain behind what is- the reality.

How then do I make peace
With that which is true to me
But to no one else..
And then again,
Quite often i wonder,
If a dream ought to be true,
would it be a dream, now ?

Mirror, Mirror on the wall - Is that me at all?

2007-05-12T06:43:00.000+05:30

Standing across me
I question those hazel eyes,
Quaintly looking like mine, At me
Their emptiness carried me
Through the endless mirages
Is that me?

But for hope,what could be?

2007-04-18T08:11:00.000+05:30

I hope my friend, this
reaches out to you in some kind...

Life was never a promise,
it is for you, to set it free..
More often than you think
things aren’t as bad as they seem
as they might feel when you are in!!
But a wink or less, later on,
when everything's lost
& everyone gone,
that's when you will know
those moments of pain,
werent worth holding on!

It is not intelligence
that survives men,
it is the perseverance
and diligence to go on...

I hope my friend,
this reaches out
to you in some kind
before it is too late..

Life in the city

2007-04-14T12:57:00.000+05:30

I live in a city
A busy one it is
No one stops for me
I don’t for any….

I love in a city
A beautiful one it is..
But time is scarce
to stop and look at it

I live in a city
A city of dreams it is
Nothing is true here
not even dreams..

I live in a city
A very huge one it is
Yet there is no place
I can call mine,
An Irony it is!

state of art :)

2007-04-14T12:40:00.000+05:30

Perhaps, I loved you
for reasons I know not
still when I see you
It is more than real
I guess thats what happens,
when success shakes hand
with heart- logic seems to refrain

Perhaps I loved you,
Yet I am happy today
cause I can finally
do with out you…....

A plan

2007-02-04T02:49:00.000+05:30

SO here’s the plan!!

Go ahead
Have that war
With those weapons
You guarded
With your lives
Bleed until
You had enough of red

Say
Give in to desires
Be the “It”
& Go have it all

Oh yeah
search the universe
& beyond
for a conquest
till the ego’s sate

Let everything wait
Until that very moment!!!

Lets then
Live with
Compassion in hearts
& peace in lives

But I will ask
for whom?
& With who?

Why me?

2007-02-04T02:10:00.000+05:30

Brown, rusty locks
tossed from an
end to the other,
tracing her face
then and again, helped
brush off those tears

With her tiny palms
she clinched a bag,
-her mom’s!

As the sun beamed
above her head
she knew,
one more day to her
bleak life
one more sin
to be alive……

Wiping her tears
clinching to her bag
she climbed in to car
waiting across
the pavement-she calls home…

She’s barely eleven
her spirit unshaken...

Inspiration:Child beggary and prostitution In India

Am I weird or what??

2007-02-03T05:32:00.000+05:30

I noticed, Its quite often That I end a conversation with “ I am weird”
Some times telling “ u better not go there, its my thing” other times meaning “ hell with you, I will do it, no matter what u think” and Most of the times thinking “ Am I really this weird??”

So I made an effort to collect this list of things (you can bitch about) which are extremely irksome to my family, friends and to myself, I‘d like to know if I really am weird.

- I almost never like my hair.It’s too short or too long, too bushy or too lanky, too straight or too wavy, too oily or too dry 

- I need to eat curd(yogurt )every day
I dare not try what would happen if I dint, my mom told me I’ll die when I was kid, and I still believe it.

- I either sketch or sing through every class, from my 6th grade to Masters it never changed.
Don’t ask me what?? Almost anything I can find appealing, last sem it was my Korean prof, I almost sketched a whole series of cartoons of her and her sweet Korean accent!!

- I am extremely hungry and irritable the first hour after I wake up.
You better not talk to me then, or you can get yelled at , with all probability.

- The first thing I do after any major fight, with anybody, is to cut my hair- real SHORT
It happened so many times, now I restrict myself by cutting nails–REAL SHORT

- I consider myself to be an excellent driver, and If am taking a ride with anybody else, I am a constant nag, would u believe it if I’d tell I do it even with cab drivers?

- I cry straight 3 hours (and I timed it) for all 4 days of my periods every month!!! I mean I cry even if there is nothing to cry about!!

- I have a preconceived notion about everybody when I first meet them, its usually extremely negative, but more often than I think I end up thinking they are nice after I get to know them.

- Oh yeah ,the one which tops my list, I never answer calls!
I am working on that, but dont ask me why, I dont like answering calls, I am weird!!

Do you think of me...

2007-01-30T05:53:00.000+05:30

tell me love,
Do u think of me?
Or did u loose me
down in your memories?

Is it easy
for you to say
you’ve never loved me
till this day?
or do you hide me
in your thoughts,
like a dream away
do you think of me
or is it that ,
I am too sad…..

I want to know
Do you understand?
I am scared now,
you ain't coming back
& leave me here
I hate these tears in my eyes
Its now Do or Die...

Still,
When I close my eyes
Its only you,…
I lived my days
Thinking of just you
I am still in dismay
won’t you come
again, any day?
to fill my days,
with love again

tell me please
Do you think of me?
Or did u loose me
down in your memories…………………..

One 'on' One

2007-01-17T07:34:00.000+05:30

This is my space...
so Let me talk
to myself
with no refrain
A good brainwash
for the sore days
Of past!

I thought there is god above
to sheild me from this unjust world
-but isnt he with-in you as well?

life has been plain unfair
- who said
its going to be fair anyways?

Why me? Why not anybody else?
- why the other? why not you?

I have waited so long
only to learn people move on...
-its your life catch it while it still there
dont wait on!

But nothing that I could do
-You should know better,
Dont you?

hmmmph!!!
Yes I do!

And suddenly ,....

2006-11-09T18:43:00.000+05:30

No space I get to be..

Every where I see

A never ending sea…

And still I hear your voice

& feel you are there…

People change

And so did I, too

Cant help the world

If I am too bad

Guess, I don't belong there

Cause it never mattered

To me….

Yes! it never mattered to me…

That I wasn't there

Even in your dreams….

And suddenly………

Everywhere I see

A never ending sea…

Nosp ace I get to be..

At the gym today :(

2006-10-25T22:52:00.000+05:30

Her eye's , Oh my...
looked like the oceon's blue...
A nose so perfect
Like i have never seen before
cheeks still red
from the hot shower, I guess
skin was like....
dont touch me.. I will get charred!!
Lips as pink as a tulip flower
brought to memory
those blossoms of spring ahead..
is it a sculpture,
her body so perfect
how can there not be even a flaw?
she is human , no angel instead...
Never have I imagined
beauty could be
this beautiful
Until an occasion of
visiting the ladies room
of gym at my school...
thank you god..
Like I needed more reasons
to hate myself..
Why cant I be
beautiful as such?

I want to sleep......

2006-10-15T04:24:00.000+05:30

I lay awake every night
Thinking of those days
Of sweet desires
Of my innocent eyes..
was it you then Or my youth’s lie?

A beautiful Life
I dreamt of once
Not so long that
I signed me off
At your heart’s note.

Before you came along
My life seemed like
a wild wind, gushing around
with bundled emotions
engulfed tears, insane thirst
for an unknown prayer
to save me from my own
Thoughts and desires….

But little did I know
No company suites me more
But my solitude; not your lore
Expect not from another
No matter what
They will let you down
I understand the truth now
Not then, when you were around..

Was it heaven?
Those precious moments with you
Was it you?
That quest that seemed an infinite queue
Was it me?
oh tell me how could it not be true...

It scared me
Quite often then
How could I love you
So………..
That I forget to live
A moment for myself

Pickled in time
Alive in my mind
Our first kiss
How can I forget that,
My heart soared
To a thousand notes
Of countless of those
Sea’s tides

I regret now
I should have died
That very instant
At that very beautiful chime…

I know now,
No company suites me more
But my solitude; not your lore
Expect not from another
No matter what
They will let you down
I understand the truth now
Not then when you were around…

Why I am I still awake then
Oh my love?

Am I waiting for you

If I am, will you come?

Ma... want to see you!

2006-10-02T21:38:00.000+05:30

Its fall again,
Reds, yellows,
Violets on trees
Its all beautiful again…

Its fall again!
Hell!
flu is back again….

I'm sure if I let the
Kettle on my lap be
I can make tea
With out sir franklin…

Yet another morning
I tuck me in my car…
just becos I have
A stupid flu.,

Nothing halts even a min you see!!!!!
Not the bills I had to attend to
Not the emails
Not my research…
Nor my boss,
who would frantically
keep calling if I am not there
as the clock ticks ten!!

It when I was driving,
I could hear my mum
Talk, gently as she put
Her hand on my forehead
She would safely tuck me in my bed..
And make a warm soup for me to drink

She would sometimes read the paper aloud for me
Or play my favorite movie…
If I didn't take my medicine,
She would bribe me
With a choclolate or a sweet

Aaaahhh!!! Traffic signal turns red again…
Wonder if the falls colors
are the culprits for trail of cars moving slow
Oh its fall again…
But no escape from running late again!!

Reality dawns…
With the honking horns…
Now I have to eat,
cause I need energy to work..
I miss you mum……!!!

I didn't know I would miss u Maa…
Until I left u behind
To live my life…..
I don't know If I ever told you this
I love you for what you are!!
& more for what you made me to be......

AbCdEf

2006-08-24T22:09:00.000+05:30

Confession to a crime
Committed often, which I
Skilled at that
Never got caught
Or will I?

May be………..
They need a cop
Please tell them they do,
Those who pity
That, those who I rob….

Naïve they are
“Words” that I use
Angelically fall
Letter after letter
To sate my hunger
A sadistic urge
Thirst for rhyme
I twist them around
And grin at their wry.

Innocently……
Crying & laughing
Like I ask them to
Complying to this master
pays not a penny ,I.
obedient slaves, yet!
have bore
an abuse, for ages
whoelse?
But,
My dear words

Good Old Days

2006-08-05T05:36:00.000+05:30

How Hard is it to be happy?
A 'somebody' asked me..
Not a difficult one to ask
nevertheless, the answer indeed was!
Hence, started this quest
Mine that I wish now,
I wish I never did...

With a wry smile
(I am pretty good with thatDid I ever mention that part?well anyways ...)
I pity myself
almost like that hyserical actress,
In a drama on doordarshan
Thats all I remeber I saw!!
( besides how to breed cows & hens & educative programs)

while I am at thisI am thinking..
humor is a sublte art
I would have bored me
Thank god , I atleast got that!
(Okay back to where I left it )
Isnt it weird how I waited
so long to be a " grown up"
and now all I want to
is to " grow down"
(if there is anything as such...On a serious note,.... )

Now I guess I understand,
what people meant when they went ..
"O' Those were the days!!!
"Yes,those were the days...
Of pure joy,
Of innocence,
Of tiny fights,
Of colorful icecreams that I ate
with frnds on the school road..,
Of tinkling school bells..
Of punishments, which meant
u got to run a good two miles..

Of " games classes"
(what a luxury...can u believe we had "games" classes???)
Of those nightsI used to cry ,
seeing a ghost or so I think I did
my dad would run to my rescue
carry me on his shoulder
till I lay sleep again..

Of that day when i brazed my knee
but the tincture at the school hospital
hurt more than an infinity...

Of those weddings whenI got to wear
gorgeous frocks of silk
silly me,did not even know what was silk,
(not that I would care then)
used to mindlessly jump around anyways..
until I was tired, to move another limb
& I knew My mom was a tantrum away
ready to carry me home
safe while I was in dreams

today as I recall one after the other
" those good old days"
Yes, indeed
those were the days..

Irony is
No matter what I do,
I know for sure,
things are never going to be the same
as they were before..
Unfortunately for me,
I am no more four,
but twenty four..!!
( actually 23 I had to lie to make it rhyme :))

How hard is it to be happy?
As hard as it would be
to change things to be
back to when I was
fouteen or four...!!

quest beyond beyond!!

2006-07-26T20:52:00.000+05:30

Walking through those paths
Of mind's lonely walls
I try to hear that voice
silenced in the rush
of life's own strange poise..

In tyranny of darkness, Im lost
I am afraid this quest should end, at my cost..
tired yet unscathed is my spirit
to seek those answers undying..
I am still trying..

Beyond life and Beyond death,
Beyond belief and Beyond faith,
Is there at all a 'beyond'?

Beyond which I can hear
that voice silenced in the rush
of life's strange poise....

Sound of Silence

2006-06-28T19:26:00.000+05:30

Were there times
You wished
Silence spoke
The language of your mind
Of your chaotic life
Of your pounding fears
Of drying tears
Were there times
You wished
You haven’t spoken a thing
But said it all….

Miss you...(Part- I)

2006-06-17T01:02:00.000+05:30

I miss him….
(Splutter!!)… (Splutter !!)
I remember
It rained that day
When my heart sank
As I saw him walk away

(Splutter!!.). (Splutter!!..)

Through those crowded streets
And busy traffic
People ran for cover
From the heavy downpour

(Splash…!!)

As I tried in vain
keeping track of him
& my heart sank
As I saw him walk away

(Splutter!!) (Splutter!!)

would words be enough?
To cry out loud….
Thoughts gushed
Alas !! In refrain…
(Splutter!!..) (Splutter!!..)

I wanted to fight
Life is unfair
He walked away
A promise
Unsaid, unheard
Broke away..

(Splutter !! )

I stood
Unaware of the
Drenching rain
While my heart sank
he was no more there…
(Splutter !! ) (Splutter !!)

Tommorow will be a new day
A brighter one, unlike gloomy today
He will see new places
& make new friends
It will be new life for him
While mine will sink in yesterday
that Aching silence &
That splutter of rain
I will hear forever

In those crowded streets
& busy traffic
Every time it rained
I looked for him
he will never be there again
I know it & still
I wish now I didn’t stand there
Crying for him…
I wish I told him
I miss him

We meet & We part!

2006-06-05T03:59:00.000+05:30

We meet people
all the time!!

Few like us
Others quite not us

With few you fall in love
It happens sometimes
In the first glance you go “wow”

You will swear to hate few others
Later on you never know
If you might love them too
Yes, time plays such a comedy of errors!

There are few
Who deserved your pity!!

Some made you laugh
so hard you cried
Many made you cry so hard
You forgot to smile..

After a while
the saga repeats again
You find yourself on move
Leaving behind the
Ones you liked ,
The ones you didn’t,
The ones who
Never mattered,
Hence you never even knew
they were there in…

As time goes by
Few years spent awry
Figuring out that
When u meet people
You are playing
just a game of a dice
& how often it is that
People meet
and People part
Alas, this is the truth
that nothing lasts
not they and
not even you..

2006-06-02T05:33:00.000+05:30

Forget poems
Forget rhyme & rhythm
Hell with words
Cant get none
My head cant think
like its blocked...
Life seems stuck at
heavy rock note
so here I take
your words my freind
Fuck Fuck
& Fuck
there you go
Thats reading out loud
my mind's lines

Woman

2006-05-09T04:44:00.000+05:30

Woman,
a faint smile?
Or hush of emotions?

Call her
A witch,…..
An angel….

Wondered how
you love her,
a rarity of such mix?

Why you swoon,
To her smile so plain?
How she can conquer you
& drive you insane?

With beauty,
With charm,
Did she walk
Right through your
Mind’s lone walls?

You made them
Stone by stone
through all those
days of Years
until one day
she decided
to come along

but still in awe you watched her win
the battle was no more battle
it was a clear win

was there a regret ever?
Wont you do it all over??

Blush of her cheeks
Taught you pink.
Her sorrow
Grieved you more,
what a pity
You poor soul..

Wont you give her
Your all, in a wink!
To lure her
to forgive,
For her smile
Which haunts you with in..,
Do you question her power?

You caught her
On canvas
You wrote
This poem
The world applauded you
& Still you sank within.

you couldn’t
but you tried
to capture
the one
that put
you ablaze..

That glimpse
The beauty with in
That smile
The thoughts behind.
& more to it

An unending quest
At her best
Woman.

My sketch

2006-04-25T15:12:00.000+05:30

duh!!??

2006-04-17T07:43:00.000+05:30

You say I am bad
the otherwise at times
You say I need to do this
& I should refrain from certain things
You talk as if you are perfect
as if you rule my world
You see me thru this huge microscope
My zit feels like shit

Am I beautiful or am I ugly?
Am I kind or am I nasty?

Who are you to tell me
My friend /my foe??
I don’t care nothing
If you are one of them! So?
Give me a break
Rehash me not
I don’t need you
To keep this constant tab!

I Live my life
The way I want
My rules I make
And why not?

Bored vs. Broke

2006-03-23T00:56:00.000+05:30

My list of things
“to-do” is racing
off the loop
yet I sit there..
still and calm
as though I had nothing to do
On the list of things
I had to do…

Slowly enjoying
My cup of tea
I admire aah that scenic view
that which the spring drew
Oh so with many hues
made the ordinary prune
extraordinary so very soon..

Telling myself
One shouldn’t miss
atleast those full
bloomed row of trees
more now like an old woman
Cursing those chilly winds
Mumbling those forgotten songs
I sat there.. still and calm
As though
I had it all done
in my list of things
I hadnt done.

Only Yesterday I talked to my sis
A full two hours & something at ease
And still felt I missed,
my darling sis ..
To let the moment pass
and to rest my crying heart
I sat still in my office hours
Still and calm
Nothing perturbed me as though
There was no deadline falling
& My advisor didn’t exist ever

As though I had never made a list
The list of things
Which I hadn’t done!

Now, this morning I Open
That dreaded list
Oh did u want a peek?
Bills bills and bills
Pepco, comcast, credit& debit,
now I know why I never touched
once I made the list
that list Of things I hadn’t done.

That’s because
my starving purse has
no more to give
poor grad student
That I Am! :(

Call 911

2006-03-09T02:27:00.000+05:30

I took a break
For a few long days
Didn’t pen a word
Even for my ego’s sake

It was an Addiction
I admit to myself
Before my mirror
As I talk to myself

To restrain from
This insane trend
I read science
In present,
& history of past,
in past tense
Lovely!!
Im there again
Musing the rhythm
Of words inane

Dirty they said
Politics was
So I tried a sniff
At the murky stuff

Nothing works
To sate this urge
What do I do
Tell me you
Is this that drug
ecstasy or what?

Alone

2006-03-09T01:00:00.000+05:30

When dreams shattered
In a single blow
In dismay I watched
Them all go

That distant storm
Felt like my own
With constant fear
Life I adorned

Mine that seemed
Those didnt last
Words failed me
Now and again
Pain numbed
I stood alone…

Somebody, Teach me paint!!

2006-02-25T02:46:00.000+05:30

Many a times
It happened to me
That I look at life
As a clean sheet

Then I see myself
drawing thin lines,
the bolder ones as well.
there are curves, there are peaks
there are spaces
untouched with time,
even now as I see

There are colors
The reds of cheeks
The blues of tragedies
much darker hues
Were there too
I wondered how
I have no cue

Besides them,
Were few.
Those names
I never knew…

Then I pause
For a little while,
tired but,
I look at my work
confused I stare!

Sometimes it’s a beauty
Many times I pity
Nevertheless I conclude
A work of Art
O' well, My life is!!!

Many a times
It happened to me
That I look at life
that clean sheet
Does this happen to all??
Or, Is it just this insane me??

Break away

2006-02-15T00:18:00.000+05:30

Breakaway … Free...,
Stretch your wings
Look at those horizons far to reach
So what if you are no-one?
So what if you are standing alone?

Breakaway…. Free….
From those that bound you
from your dreams….

Let go free…
Those feelings, those fears
Let go free….
Those tiny tears,
& Nevertheless
those greeds that were dear

So what if it will hurt
To breathe?
So, what if it’s a battle
Everyday might seem?

When you brave your heart
to the toughest winds…..
You know that it is worth
An every bit…
cause when you are done
you have achieved
your gift for life
your freedom ..
yourself…

The same Ol' Question

2006-02-07T21:08:00.000+05:30

Have you ever come across
A question ever,
Which goes like,
Do you know what
God is, that mighty power?
Whom you see not ever
Neither touch or by means anyother
That is an answer
I got never…….
However,
A bigger quest for me
I uncover,
What are “ you”??
And
What am “I”??
My brother….
That you touch
That you see
And still when you feel
There is more to me
So is more to you,
with time we discover

Truth?

2006-01-23T04:59:00.000+05:30

Who would be
You nor me.

When time tics

Nothing is true
nothing is a lie;

No battle remains
Not even love sustains…

no body great,
conviction doesn’t await..

when death strikes
nothing remains….

Nothing true
Nothing you can do
to Undo..

When time tics
Who would be
You nor me…….

These words are all I have...

2006-01-22T06:41:00.000+05:30

More than once I have been asked

To explain my stance…

When I write about love,

And About loss…….

SO,
Tell me my friend

Whose wisdom I share

Haven’t you looked at the endless seas

Havent you Danced to rain

after a summers heat?

havent you seen then my friend

that you loved and cried

so as you did??

Don’t you ever peep

Out of that window crape

To look at the moon

Oh so there........

While it silently lights

Your dreams at night....

Didn't the snow.......

tell you a fairy tale

Of lore, lust and loss??

Didn’t the summer rays

Touch you ever as they said

Look at me and cheer.....

Its early morning my dear

Oh poor you!

did u miss the breeze??

Didn’t it fly your hair away?

Leaving your mood crispy all day...

If your heart dances to

Gushes of wind......

And soars to the deeps

Of million seas....

When you secretly cry for

Life’s tragedies?

Wouldn’t you drop

your eys’s own

a precious pearl??

All I do is write them down

tell me my friend

What would you do?

Please tell me how

I would be what I am ?

If my heart doesn’t skip a beat

When I see a naughty glee

That running nose

and one or two teeth

Angels I claim

To this insane me

children of that

great destiny

Now I shall ask you my friend

Haven't you ever been in love?

With those I said?

How couldn’t you? if you didn’t...

How cud you not be Me, if you did??

If you did........

Atleast once,

you will see

what I meant...

by desire enliven….

If you must know my friend

That’s all I write

Forgive my innocence....

Empty

2006-01-10T01:21:00.000+05:30

Sometimes you feel

That you stand there

And see ..........

you live in a street

that nobody lives

the city so dead

&the air so pale

Sometimes you feel

There is no place to hide

No thing to do

No one to talk

Your world is closed

And it is dark

Sometimes you feel

That you stand there

And just see.......

Nothing stops anything

You don’t belong

To what you see

Sometimes you feel

That you stand there

And see ...........

& that’s because

you feel so empty.

Why death is the worst of them all....

2005-12-16T02:12:00.000+05:30

When I was 5 and my sis hit me blue and black
I bit her back

When I was 10 , my dog ate my icecream
I cried & got new one…

When I was 12 , my teacher told me
I was good for nothing
I studied hard.. and topped my class

When I was 14, my best friend won my crush
I knew I deserved better….

When I was 16 , the world was unfair
I waited until 20 and everything seemed square & fair..

when I was 18 I lost someone dear
I cried, I thought, and I waited,
nothing happened.................

death is the worst of them all
it never gives you a second chance..

Happiness

2005-12-16T01:57:00.000+05:30

Happiness
How vague a word?
The definition in dictionary
Oxford, Stanford & r there more

But try will u?
Define the word happiness..
When I did it seemed like
That distant thin line
of concurrence
Of the skies and seas..
Sure it is exhiliarating
A game of mind…
Not reality but the truth u see

Happiness a vague feeling
Never been there,

anyone been there done that??

silence

2005-12-16T01:46:00.000+05:30

Silence ……………
It haunts , scares,
Blows trumpets
That you are alone

I hate silence….
The very word
Its very thought
When Agonizing memories
Come to life……

Its like a “.” ( period)
So full it might seem
But then think
Empty it stands later.

Brutus, you too....?

2005-11-08T07:43:00.000+05:30

Trust made me vulnerable
shock left me numb
thoughts gushed
while memories played
in tearful eyes...

Now it makes sense
how delicate "trust" stands
as caesar puts
"Brutus, you too?"

Good bye my friend
This is to cherish
all the good ol'times
of silly jokes,of caring words
& of naughty anecdotes
and importantly then..
to cherish us my friend
when we struk a perfect balance
on our trust plane..
did we know then
how delicate " trust " stood..

Now It is over
for not now, but forever..
cause you have chosen
to break my heart
& Our silent wow of trust
in to a countless peices,
and dust.....
and I have chosen
to walk away
leaving them there
as I must....
....Trust indeed stands delicate...............

Wishful Thoughts...Of Beauty Of Me

2005-06-23T08:05:00.000+05:30

How does it feel to be beautiful??

to be the beauty,…. of the beast

to come in dreams,…. of poor and rich

to be the coveted one of a hansome prince?

how does it feel to be beautiful??

To be the sculpture

The poetry , the woman in the painting

and inspiration to all of Art

The reason for war and thirst for power

And to win without a battle……….

How does it feel to be beautiful??

To be called the dew of mornings

The dusk of evenings……….

Gait of a deer and talk of a parrot

Touch of dove & Smile to the that of thousand lanterns

And just the very

Presence to that of a goddess??

How does it feel to be beautiful?

I held this dream to know

too shallow an aim, too important a nuance

Well, a dream is dream

Not the truth, not the lie

but somewhere it haunts

In the visions of night…..

My sweet little angel ..........Vasavi

2005-04-04T22:12:00.000+05:30

My sweet lil angel
when she smiled it was heaven
she was naughty , my crime's accomplice
she sang .. however she did ..it was a beautiful
she danced.. my lil angel was no less a star....
she was one of those im sure
god said hmm... good work or wat!!!
she was The Best my darling of all....
she left me but, my angel star...
five years and i miss her
and it's all beautiful now & again..
since i saw her in my dreams inane..

shakuntala

2005-03-29T12:03:00.000+05:30

Is it a yes or Is it a no?
tell me when you know
I am waiting...
and I shall remain so

Holding my heart
through countless falls
gloomy nights,lonesome showers
silent snows...
I am waiting
I shall remain so

Many passed by
few showered pity
others plain redicule
nothing seemed to touch me
neither the colors off fall
nor the pity or the redicule
but for the silence
of the each night
and yet
I am waiting
and I shall remain so

Drew my strength from beleif
courage from faith
rationale escaped...
while I am waiting
and I shall remain so...

I wish....I knew ...!!

2005-03-19T02:32:00.001+05:30

How I wish I knew
to fall in love so true
is so much a crime
The sentence a lifetime…

How I wish I knew
That you were a lie
Those smiles would turn a wry
Leaving me to cry...

How I wish I knew
I am the looser & at shame..
While I lauded you
Steal me through…

How I wish I knew
it was but a game for you,
to tame the untamed…

How I wish I knew
you never loved me true
so much a crime
the sentence a lifetime